I am officially 26 and I feel good.
Doing this blog challenge has been just that, a challenge. Overall it was fun and I didn’t expect to learn as much as I did during this process.
August has been a busy month for me in general, so now that I’ve gotten through my birthday I’m starting to feel settled.
I’m getting excited about a trip I’m taking to Paris & London in a little over two weeks!!!! You guys will definitely see lots of pictures during & after the trip.
I wanted to take this time to give this series a proper ending and talk about some of the things I’ve learned from this challenge/my 25th year.
I can stand on my own two feet
25 was my first full year of living alone and while challenging I have learned how to be a better problem solver and how to support myself.
It’s okay to ask for help when you need it
I had never realized how much I struggled to ask for help before the past 6-9 months. Before even 3 months ago I got anxious when I had to ask people for things, even when I knew they would say yes without hesitation. Now, I’m able to ask for help quickly and easily, because I understand that we are here to help one another.
Doing something everyday is hard
Whether it’s fitness, meditation, eating healthy, or this challenge I have found with all my routines it is hard to do something every single day. My job is somewhat unstructured so my day to day often looks different. It makes it hard sometimes to stay grounded with routines when your work hours change daily. The biggest thing with this one for me is to be gentle with myself and go with the flow. I’m actively practicing not allowing a failed routine ruin the rest of my day.
There are many other things I’ve learned over this past year, but I don’t want to go on forever.
Thank you all for following along in this journey! I have lots of ideas for more content that’ll be coming soon. In the meantime, if you all have questions or things you’d like to see from me, feel free to leave a comment!
I’ve been thinking a lot about faith lately.
What does it mean to have unwavering faith?
I often tell myself things like “everything will be okay” “the universe has your back” & “everything happens for a reason” during moments of anxiety. Telling myself these cliches along with other practices are helpful on tough days, but sometimes I wonder how strong my faith really is.
I question this because anytime I encounter a crisis (minor or major) I experience a familiar anxiety. I feel like if I truly believe I am fully supported, am I to face these times with calm or is it completely normal, no matter how strong your faith is to freak out from time to time?
This is for sure more of an existential crisis (which happens a lot for me), but either way I want to get stronger in my faith. One way that I reassure myself when I feel uneasy is to reflect on everything I’ve been through up until this point, sometimes I feel like I’ve lived multiple lives because I’ve had so many different experiences.
Above all I want to feel sure that I am on the right path and trust the messages I’m receiving from God without needing proof first.
I’m in a space where nothing in my life is permanent and it is unsettling for me.
I am the kind of girl that always has to have a plan. In my day to day I’m not much of a planner, but in the grand scheme of what I want out of life I have always had a plan. I know that the plans we have for our lives are often arbitrary, but for me there’s comfort in knowing where I’m headed in life or at least the illusion of knowing.
The only thing I’m certain of at this moment is that where I work, live, and my lifestyle will be completely different in the next two years and I have no idea what that might look like. I know there’s beauty in the unknown and I’ve been trying to settle into it, but it’s extremely hard for me.
I will say that even though it’s difficult to feel like you’re truly taking it one day at a time with no clear end goal in mind I am optimistic. I’m hopeful because my expectations for where I would be and the experiences I would have had up until this point were completely different than my reality. I know I often limit myself and think small scale when it comes to my life, this uncertain space I’m in has allowed me the benefit of truly understanding the endless opportunities we are given in this life.
I know that I still have a lot more to learn, but I would love some sense of permanence in my life. Until then, I will enjoy my journey with grace and love.
Two whole weeks you guys! 🙂
I literally feel like I wrote day 7 yesterday.
This day has flown by (pun intended)!
I had a 9 a.m school meeting, 1 p.m home visit( for two kiddos), & 7:30 flight to Chicago. I know that all seems spread out and feasible, but each of those obligations were an hour away from home. So between doing that, packing, and bathing my dog and myself tired is an understatement.
The good news is I’m here, in my cousin’s guest room braiding my hair for the night.
We’re getting real vulnerable folks!
I’m using the Rover app to get walks for Mia while I’m away. If any of you are pet owners and need ever need a sitter, walker, visitor, or groomer ( they do it all– cats included!) My referral link: https://www.rover.com/refer/jasmib47608/ can get you $20 off!
I’ve been thinking a lot about my why?
Why am I doing what I’m doing with my career? Why am I living where I’m living? Why am I in the relationships I’m in?
A few years ago I started to get more serious about my life and my direction. I am always concerned with being happy and fulfilled. I want to make sure that I don’t wake up one day in 30 years, unsure of who I am and where my life has gone. I want a life filled with joy, balance, and overall health. I want days marked by love and gratitude.
Perhaps it’s because I’m walking into my late 20s, but I’m knee deep in a space of ensuring my intentions are clear. I know greatness lies before me, I just want to be prepared and grounded when I get there.
If you’re looking for some inspiration, this video by Gary Vee might just be the pick me up you need.