I’ve been thinking a lot about faith lately.
What does it mean to have unwavering faith?
I often tell myself things like “everything will be okay” “the universe has your back” & “everything happens for a reason” during moments of anxiety. Telling myself these cliches along with other practices are helpful on tough days, but sometimes I wonder how strong my faith really is.
I question this because anytime I encounter a crisis (minor or major) I experience a familiar anxiety. I feel like if I truly believe I am fully supported, am I to face these times with calm or is it completely normal, no matter how strong your faith is to freak out from time to time?
This is for sure more of an existential crisis (which happens a lot for me), but either way I want to get stronger in my faith. One way that I reassure myself when I feel uneasy is to reflect on everything I’ve been through up until this point, sometimes I feel like I’ve lived multiple lives because I’ve had so many different experiences.
Above all I want to feel sure that I am on the right path and trust the messages I’m receiving from God without needing proof first.
I’m in a space where nothing in my life is permanent and it is unsettling for me.
I am the kind of girl that always has to have a plan. In my day to day I’m not much of a planner, but in the grand scheme of what I want out of life I have always had a plan. I know that the plans we have for our lives are often arbitrary, but for me there’s comfort in knowing where I’m headed in life or at least the illusion of knowing.
The only thing I’m certain of at this moment is that where I work, live, and my lifestyle will be completely different in the next two years and I have no idea what that might look like. I know there’s beauty in the unknown and I’ve been trying to settle into it, but it’s extremely hard for me.
I will say that even though it’s difficult to feel like you’re truly taking it one day at a time with no clear end goal in mind I am optimistic. I’m hopeful because my expectations for where I would be and the experiences I would have had up until this point were completely different than my reality. I know I often limit myself and think small scale when it comes to my life, this uncertain space I’m in has allowed me the benefit of truly understanding the endless opportunities we are given in this life.
I know that I still have a lot more to learn, but I would love some sense of permanence in my life. Until then, I will enjoy my journey with grace and love.
Two whole weeks you guys! 🙂
I literally feel like I wrote day 7 yesterday.
This day has flown by (pun intended)!
I had a 9 a.m school meeting, 1 p.m home visit( for two kiddos), & 7:30 flight to Chicago. I know that all seems spread out and feasible, but each of those obligations were an hour away from home. So between doing that, packing, and bathing my dog and myself tired is an understatement.
The good news is I’m here, in my cousin’s guest room braiding my hair for the night.
We’re getting real vulnerable folks!
I’m using the Rover app to get walks for Mia while I’m away. If any of you are pet owners and need ever need a sitter, walker, visitor, or groomer ( they do it all– cats included!) My referral link: https://www.rover.com/refer/jasmib47608/ can get you $20 off!
I’ve been thinking a lot about my why?
Why am I doing what I’m doing with my career? Why am I living where I’m living? Why am I in the relationships I’m in?
A few years ago I started to get more serious about my life and my direction. I am always concerned with being happy and fulfilled. I want to make sure that I don’t wake up one day in 30 years, unsure of who I am and where my life has gone. I want a life filled with joy, balance, and overall health. I want days marked by love and gratitude.
Perhaps it’s because I’m walking into my late 20s, but I’m knee deep in a space of ensuring my intentions are clear. I know greatness lies before me, I just want to be prepared and grounded when I get there.
If you’re looking for some inspiration, this video by Gary Vee might just be the pick me up you need.
I forgot to post yesterday, & I’m actively trying not to beat myself up about it. I’m just going to keep going.
Yesterday was the new moon in Leo, I did my moon rituals and I felt more energized this morning than I have in at least a week.
Insecure season 3 premiers tonight, and I’m feeling very excited about that. If you haven’t watched Insecure, you definitely should it’s funny, relatable, and they tackle a lot of societal topics all of us are faced with daily.
I’ve been practicing slow living in small ways recently. When I can, I wake up slowly and get out of bed when my body is ready. I sit on the couch to enjoy my daily cup of green tea, instead of gulping it down with breakfast or on the go. I’ve re-introduced long walks with my dog instead of 5 minutes spurts before I have to be out of the door. I even swung by the bark park at my apartment complex today.
Both of us are grateful for this new found commitment to slowness.
Slowing down, even in the smallest ways has shown me that there is more than enough time. There is enough time for you to pour into yourself, your relationships, and everything else you want to do.
It’s easy to get caught up in constantly being on the go, but there is so much beauty in living slowly.
I’ve been working extra lately, trying to make rent & pay the rest of a trip I’m taking next month. It you’d like to help with these efforts, you can visit my Etsy shop & purchase a copy of the Design Your Life journal or photo prints! 🙂 The Journal is a more comprehensive workbook version of the Design Your Life series I did back in December.
Basically because of the extra time I’ve been working, I’ve had less time for self care. I generally do facials once a week, but didn’t have time for it this weekend. Additionally I try to workout at least 4 times a week but slacked on that last week as well. So today, when I was preparing myself for the day I almost forfeited my normal routine to go rush here and there and take care of responsibilities. I decided that it would be more beneficial for me to make sure my cup is full before leaving the house. I did some Pilates, took my dog on a long walk and spent some extra time washing my hair in the shower and it felt great. My takeaway from all this is there’s ALWAYS time for self care.
I didn’t have time to do my facial before I left the house, so I left a little reminder for myself for when I got home.
Which is a really good tip for making sure you’re engaging in self care. Set reminders for yourself around your home, workspace or even on your phone. It can be as simple as reminders to take a deep breath. Self care isn’t always easy or natural to practice regularly, give yourself cues wherever and whenever you can.