I am officially 26 and I feel good.
Doing this blog challenge has been just that, a challenge. Overall it was fun and I didn’t expect to learn as much as I did during this process.
August has been a busy month for me in general, so now that I’ve gotten through my birthday I’m starting to feel settled.
I’m getting excited about a trip I’m taking to Paris & London in a little over two weeks!!!! You guys will definitely see lots of pictures during & after the trip.
I wanted to take this time to give this series a proper ending and talk about some of the things I’ve learned from this challenge/my 25th year.
I can stand on my own two feet
25 was my first full year of living alone and while challenging I have learned how to be a better problem solver and how to support myself.
It’s okay to ask for help when you need it
I had never realized how much I struggled to ask for help before the past 6-9 months. Before even 3 months ago I got anxious when I had to ask people for things, even when I knew they would say yes without hesitation. Now, I’m able to ask for help quickly and easily, because I understand that we are here to help one another.
Doing something everyday is hard
Whether it’s fitness, meditation, eating healthy, or this challenge I have found with all my routines it is hard to do something every single day. My job is somewhat unstructured so my day to day often looks different. It makes it hard sometimes to stay grounded with routines when your work hours change daily. The biggest thing with this one for me is to be gentle with myself and go with the flow. I’m actively practicing not allowing a failed routine ruin the rest of my day.
There are many other things I’ve learned over this past year, but I don’t want to go on forever.
Thank you all for following along in this journey! I have lots of ideas for more content that’ll be coming soon. In the meantime, if you all have questions or things you’d like to see from me, feel free to leave a comment!
I’m in a space where nothing in my life is permanent and it is unsettling for me.
I am the kind of girl that always has to have a plan. In my day to day I’m not much of a planner, but in the grand scheme of what I want out of life I have always had a plan. I know that the plans we have for our lives are often arbitrary, but for me there’s comfort in knowing where I’m headed in life or at least the illusion of knowing.
The only thing I’m certain of at this moment is that where I work, live, and my lifestyle will be completely different in the next two years and I have no idea what that might look like. I know there’s beauty in the unknown and I’ve been trying to settle into it, but it’s extremely hard for me.
I will say that even though it’s difficult to feel like you’re truly taking it one day at a time with no clear end goal in mind I am optimistic. I’m hopeful because my expectations for where I would be and the experiences I would have had up until this point were completely different than my reality. I know I often limit myself and think small scale when it comes to my life, this uncertain space I’m in has allowed me the benefit of truly understanding the endless opportunities we are given in this life.
I know that I still have a lot more to learn, but I would love some sense of permanence in my life. Until then, I will enjoy my journey with grace and love.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my why?
Why am I doing what I’m doing with my career? Why am I living where I’m living? Why am I in the relationships I’m in?
A few years ago I started to get more serious about my life and my direction. I am always concerned with being happy and fulfilled. I want to make sure that I don’t wake up one day in 30 years, unsure of who I am and where my life has gone. I want a life filled with joy, balance, and overall health. I want days marked by love and gratitude.
Perhaps it’s because I’m walking into my late 20s, but I’m knee deep in a space of ensuring my intentions are clear. I know greatness lies before me, I just want to be prepared and grounded when I get there.
If you’re looking for some inspiration, this video by Gary Vee might just be the pick me up you need.
I forgot to post yesterday, & I’m actively trying not to beat myself up about it. I’m just going to keep going.
Yesterday was the new moon in Leo, I did my moon rituals and I felt more energized this morning than I have in at least a week.
Insecure season 3 premiers tonight, and I’m feeling very excited about that. If you haven’t watched Insecure, you definitely should it’s funny, relatable, and they tackle a lot of societal topics all of us are faced with daily.
I’ve been practicing slow living in small ways recently. When I can, I wake up slowly and get out of bed when my body is ready. I sit on the couch to enjoy my daily cup of green tea, instead of gulping it down with breakfast or on the go. I’ve re-introduced long walks with my dog instead of 5 minutes spurts before I have to be out of the door. I even swung by the bark park at my apartment complex today.
Both of us are grateful for this new found commitment to slowness.
Slowing down, even in the smallest ways has shown me that there is more than enough time. There is enough time for you to pour into yourself, your relationships, and everything else you want to do.
It’s easy to get caught up in constantly being on the go, but there is so much beauty in living slowly.
So I’ve decided to give up junk food.
I do home visits for work, which makes it really easy to stop at fast food restaurants or gas stations and grab the absolute worse things to eat. I’ve gotten into a habit of getting french fries or potato chips when I’m out and about. Waffle fries and Chik-fil-a sauce happen to be my weakness, I also loooove hot Cheetos & anything sweet.
It never fails, the more often I eat junk food, the more often I can justify it to myself.
“If I have these chips I know I’m going to want something sweet after (grabs oatmeal cream pie); there’s no need to spend $3 on this small pint of ice cream when I can get the gallon for $2.”
I like to pride myself on being healthy and when it comes to meals, I eat high quality foods; but I have a weakness for terrible snacks in between. I like to allow wiggle room for cheat foods every once in a while, but the regularity in which I’ve allowed myself to eat things that aren’t actually food doesn’t sit well with me.
I am of the belief that the things we consume are energy and through eating certain things we are telling the universe what we desire in our lives. I never feel good about myself after leaving a drive thru and though the foods are good in the moment, I never feel good after I’m finished. While I think we should be able to enjoy guilty pleasures, it should be occasionally not a habitual pattern. Since I have fallen into that space, I’m cutting out all the bs, cold turkey (holds back tears). I really love potato chips y’all.
Hopefully this will transition into long term healthier snack choices.
If you have tips for picking up the yogurt instead of ice cream in the store, leave them in the comments below!
Thanks for reading day 8, see you tomorrow!
I’ve made it an entire week!
Seeing as how I was not sure what I was even thinking when I got the idea to do this, I feel accomplished.
I was actually looking forward to writing tonight, and these daily posts have become a staple in my night routine.
This is serving as some serious self-care and emotional processing for me, it is also helping to ease anxiety and diminish perfectionism. I don’t feel the need for these posts to be anything other than where I am when I sit to write them and it feels nice, honest, real.
I hope that at least one of these post have been helpful to you, and I pray that you continue along this journey with me.
Thank you for your time.
P.S. this does not have to be a one-sided conversation, I would love comments, some love on Instagram, or an e-mail email@example.com.